3 AM in MIA

"Stop.  Don't" "Baby.  Let me finish." "No.  Don't.  Can't take any more." The hour was approaching midnight and the only light in the bedroom came from the muted television.  But already deep into what had begun, the will pressed on to an ultimate conclusion, despite her protests and despite what was clearly tears in her eyes." "Come on.  Almost finished." "No.  Can't take it. Please!" But being near the climactic point, the purpose of it all, it's impossible for one to stop.  Certainly countless couples have been in the same position where one is ignoring the others tears and pushing deeper." "Come on?  It's okay.  Just let me finish," was the strained request to continue. By now her brown eyes were full of tears and even in the dim light they could could be seen tricking from the corners down her cheeks.  Finally,  after several excruciating minutes that must have felt like an hour to her, ...

It's 3 am in Miami again and awake this time with a touch of anxiety over freight sitting in Frankfort, Germany cargo terminal with the importer playing a little fast and a little loose with the import regulations.  And if his eco-boost engine get's seized by German Customs, who will he blame.  Yeah.  Potentially there are some uncomfortable conversations this weekend and disputes over charges.  I should have tapped the GABA before going to bed to make sure I slept though the night on this, rather than waking up and tossing it over and over. But gratitude for the gentle breathing of someone next to me numbs the anxiety.  Three weeks earlier there were no sounds of that sort, only sounds of nearby trucks, overhead planes and far away trains, so I found myself getting up and looking for the anxiety relief of human contact at the only reputable place open at that hour - Denny's. The parking lot was empty as was the dinning area save for one moustached Latino proppe...

 With MANIPULATION the Communist ideology infiltrated various levels of Cuban society.   With INTIMIDATION the Communists methodically silenced the dissenting voices of those who chose to remain in Cuba while freedom loving hearts and minds, sacrificed materially to fly, float or in some cases sink to their final resting place, beneath the shark filled straight North of Havana and South of the Florida Keys. And with the removal of Cuba's most able minds and pure hearts, the Communists began their DOMINATION of those who remained, removing or controlling every facet of lives of each individual and society as a whole.     Removed from the personhood of each remaining Cuban were truths that we as American hold as self evident, and endowed by our Creator as inalienable - Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.  Removed from the Life of most remaining on the island was the right to chose an education profession or employer, the right to own property, or...

I filled out forms online and the psychologist reviewed them. Of particular note to them was my 29 years in Alcoholics Anonymous.  They had previously attended Al Anon due to an alcoholic ex-spouse and drug abusing child so that was an initial connecting point.    If a psychologist is aware that you've been in AA for almost 30 years and have "sponsored people" they will read through your file and then confirm with a few questions that what you present is valid.   If your answers hold to what's in your file, you move up the ladder from the typical, co-dependent, whining bull-shitters coming through their door on a daily basis and they can get right to the point.  "What are the issues you are dealing with, why are we talking." "Well, the last day of November I was on business in Miami, met someone, returned after meeting them and told the mother of my children, with whom I'd been for 25 years, that I was going back to Miami to help this person as they...

I've been talking to a psychologist.  Many of you are sighing with relief, "Thank God!  We were worried about you.  Please continue.  You have issues.  I mean you're a cute guy and all, and funny and nice, and emotionally available, pero dios mío, tienes suficiente equipaje para llenar al menos un camión en movimiento de 26 pies." And from the Tonight Show in Heaven, Joan Rivers rolls her eyes at all of you, "OH GROW UP.  HALF OF YOU ARE WATCHING THE HALLMARK CHANNEL 7 NIGHTS A WEEK AND THE REST OF YOU IT'S SEX IN THE CITY WHILE YOU WHITE KNUCKLE YOUR VIBRATORS UNTIL THE NEXT OPENING NIGHT OF 50 SHADES OF GREY. " Nothing but "baggage porn" of all genres.  But here is an honest man taking stock of his in some other than the limp wristed Hallmark way, and "Oh...that's too much for me to handle. You need therapy.  Lots.  Oh, but you are cute.   Call me when you've healed and have learned to love yourself." Am I wrong?  As Joan ...

Comment: 20 years ago or so when I was on dating sights, I was looking for ONE thing, mostly.   One characteristic mattered most - and that was HAPPY!  Was this person already happy?    If they looked sad and needy, I'd run.  But I guess you're wanting to attract someone like yourself who has a big sad hole in the heart.  So you shouldn't pretend to be something you're not.   Response: Can't we all fake a smile?    Don't we all strike a pose?   You,  I shall  push away.  Or you, I shall draw close. Is not a person's depth found in the deepest hole at the bottom of their heart ? Are not life's greatest joys, found on the other side of life's deepest sorrows ?            

"AMPS" or Asian Massage Parlors are this week's distraction from all of "whatever else is supposed to really matter" From The New York Times: Accused Gunman Had Visited Massage Parlors He Targeted, Police Say The suspect, who was a customer at two of the spas in the Atlanta area that were attacked this week, spent time in a rehab clinic for a self-described sexual addiction. Sadly, the authors of these articles, know little of massage parlors, the range of human interaction that goes on in them, nor do they understand the states of mind of the partakers, before, during and after. I need not read past the headline, to know the forboden FOUR LETTER WORD in such a NYT article.  It's the same word often uttered in the pornographic solicitations by it's purported purveyors.  The word is abusively trafficked in many forms, associated with worst and best of human emotions and experiences.  The word is a harlot.  She is bought cheaply at great cost.  She is spla...